So I have been checking the phones..Why aren't they ringing, are they broken? No, the phones are running smoothly...Why am I obsessed...I know we are close, but we could be months away...WHY, WHY, WHY!!!! These are just a few things I have been feeling lately. Overall I am doing quiet well, I just can't tell that to my heart. I realized how incredible it is to go through this journey and know that we are not alone. What would I do if my husband and I had know one to share this with experience with. We would be LOST...So as of now we are anticipating our day, but are not longing or staring at the phone trying to make it ring. It doesn't work. The day will come when we least expect it and I will be forever changed, until then I am going to stay up late, eat chocolate, drink a little more wine then I should, spend alone time with my husband and be in the PRESENT.