February 5, 2009

no one has called


So I have been checking the phones..Why aren't they ringing, are they broken? No, the phones are running smoothly...Why am I obsessed...I know we are close, but we could be months away...WHY, WHY, WHY!!!! These are just a few things I have been feeling lately. Overall I am doing quiet well, I just can't tell that to my heart. I realized how incredible it is to go through this journey and know that we are not alone. What would I do if my husband and I had know one to share this with experience with. We would be LOST...So as of now we are anticipating our day, but are not longing or staring at the phone trying to make it ring. It doesn't work. The day will come when we least expect it and I will be forever changed, until then I am going to stay up late, eat chocolate, drink a little more wine then I should, spend alone time with my husband and be in the PRESENT.

12 comments:

Brooke said...

The wait is hard. Plain and Simple, it's just hard.

It sounds like you have a good plan to be present in the moment. Wine, chocolate, staying up late, uh huh, you got the idea.

:)

Missy said...

It has been a hard week, especially after all of the referrals last week! I'm sure it will happen soon for you!!

Nate and Stefany Head said...

No, you are not alone! :) And, if you figure out how to make the phone ring by staring at it, let me know. :)

jamullins said...

Wish I could join you!!! (the wine and chocolate part!):)
Praying for you guys!!! Know exactly how you feel!

Julie

Christina Hubbard said...

What a wonderful attitude! Me and chocolate have become best friends lately! :) Praying for a referral for you VERY soon!

Tina

Becky said...

Okay I keep checking and checking thinking you will hear something really soon. You have been so great at staying positive! Before the weekend would be a really good time for them to call. Hope it is soon!

tasag said...

I'm sure your time is near, your valentine is on its way. You have a support group that does not quite, and that is good, many have traveled your road and many are on your road also,,,,you are NOT alone.
The days ahead are fewer than the days that have passed, time is on your side.

Amy said...

Your call has got to be soon...

Umm, did I ever say THANK YOU for the Africa decal?? I was in Portland a while back and we were all supposed to meet for lunch and you couldn't make it. Thanks so much for the decal! Love it... :)

Becky and Naing said...

I know how you feel, it is so hard!
And even though everyone who has been through it says it will happen when it is suppose to, it doesn't make the waiting any easier.

Steve and Aimee Walker said...

It will happen when you least expect it. Everytime I was away from my phone at work, I would check for any missed calls. I mean if I left for a few minutes to go to the bathroom, or was at someone else's desk for a half hour I would check it. Then the day I forgot to bring my phone with me to lunch, bam CHI was trying to reach me.

I cahn't wait to hear your good news!

Amber said...

I love the picture!
I can completely understand how it can be so hard to wait!

Justine said...

Are you going crazy?? I was fine last week and am going bonkers today. Chocolate and wine are just not working any more. I really hope we get the best valentine gifts this week. I'm thinking of you!